Day 1 of 365…

Happy day number one of a new year! I’ve never been one to really believe in that “new year, new me” bull-ish, although I do like to take a new year and birthdays as resets. I believe any day of the year we can aspire to be a new and better version of ourselves! I have my own little weird quirk tho, I like to start goals on a Monday instead of in the middle of the week. If I eat badly (which usually consists of too much candy) I try to start cutting out the sugar highs the following Monday and let me tell you I will eat as much candy as I can until that Monday arrives. If I’ve spent too much money, the next pay cheque I try to do a bit better. Every time I have tried to quit smoking, it’s always “when the weekend is over”… still trying with the smoking, it’s my only vice and we have to have something! But yes I know it’s a bad habit, I know I will quit smoking eventually!! So when a new year comes, I like to reflect on the past year and try to make the new one better. What I have seen, 2018 was a weird year for a lot of us! Lots of trials, tribulations and hardships! Not for all, but for most. I saw a meme the other day with a cute little cartoon girl taking out the trash and on the trash bag it had 2018 on it! Why was 2018 such a complex year?! It was as if our little life boats were stuck in the Bermuda triangle. Well anyways, it is over now and we are onto the first day of 2019. So my motto will be “new year, bad habits of 2018 not for me!” In 2018 I let a lot of my not so happy thoughts control my brain, I will not carry that over into 2019. I focused a little too much on the negative instead of the positive, I am definitely not taking that with me into this new year.. especially since i’m all about being goofy and laughing, can’t laugh when the air around you isn’t joyous! There was a lot of light shed on mental health issues in 2018, which was a great thing because now a lot of us don’t have to feel so alone in that aspect. For myself, anxiety came into my life in the last couple of years. I’m sure I have had it for a lot longer than I realized but it came to the surface more within these past years. Something hard to deal with, any of you who have anxiety know how it feels. It’s awful, someone who once never sweat the small stuff can’t help but focus on it. It’s beyond our control and I don’t do well with things controlling my mind and body! For me personally, the last couple months I have found a lot of comfort in positive affirmations and the law of attraction from the universe. WARNING: I’m gonna turn super hippie right now. When I was just getting out of my teens I read a book called “The Secret”, i’m sure a lot of you have heard of it. Scientists, authors and philosophers explain how the law of attraction governs our thinking and actions and how you can use it to achieve whatever you desire in life. I remember when I had first read the book, I was twenty years old, I thought to myself “Ok, this is a whole bunch of hocus pocus! How can I just say I want something and i’ll get it” Well that’s not really how it works. What the law of attraction means is focusing on the positive. Believing you deserve and will receive what you want. It works with the negative too. Ever notice how you’ll wake up one morning and let’s say, stub your toe on the bed. Notice how the rest of the day goes bad after that when you dwell on the negative. You’re so focused on how annoying it was that the first thing you did in the morning was hurt yourself, that those negative thoughts draw out more negativity throughout the rest of your day. You go to brush your teeth, no toothpaste. Even more frustrated, you put on the shirt you had planned to wear to work and there’s a rip in it. The more the frustration builds, the worse the day gets. Now if you had stubbed your toe and not let it affect you, the rest of the annoying events that would happen during the day probably wouldn’t bother you as much and you’d have a much better day. The one example that seemed to be the most true, is not wanting to be late for something. Notice how when you focus on not being late, “I can’t be late, I can’t be late”, you almost always end up late! When I first read The Secret, although thinking it was just another bogus scheme, I wanted to see if it would actually work. So I changed my mindset, believed in it and put it to the test… couldn’t hurt to try! I was in hair school at the time and had always wanted to go to Vegas. I read in the book an example of a man wanting to start a business but didn’t have the money to do it, so he wrote himself a cheque for $50,000. He put it on his bathroom mirror so he could visualize it everyday and believed he would receive it! Three months later, an investor heard of his work and called him to invest in his business idea. He met with the investor and there was a cheque sitting on top of his contract, written out to him for $50,000. Thinking about that story, I decided to write a cheque to myself for $1500 dollars. In the memo I wrote “trip to Vegas” and put it in my wallet. I carried around that cheque for nine months until I graduated. I told no one about it, neither my friends nor my parents. I believed that after all my hard work in school, I deserved the getaway to Vegas and would somehow get the $1500 for my trip. I swear on my puppies life, when I finished school my parents gave me $1500 dollars as a graduation gift and I used it to go to Vegas.. crazy eh! That’s because I wanted it, believed I deserved it and didn’t focus on the negative thoughts, “No I’m not gonna find the money” or “I wont get to go to Vegas”.. but instead focused on the fact that I really wanted to go and eventually would! I can say I did drop the ball on the believing into existence part, which i’m trying not to be too hard on myself about. Every day is a new day to be better, no matter how many tries we take to stab at it! My friends always use the “Vegas Cheque” story to remind me to think positive thoughts, a lot of times when my anxiety gets the best of me. So for 2019, I am starting back at it!! I had a psychiatrist once tell me that it’s a normal progression for humans to focus on what they don’t want more than what they do want and that causes a snowball effect of focusing on the bad. The more you roll the snowball, the bigger it gets. The hardest thing to do is get out of that snowball but all we have to do is take that first step to train our minds towards the positive! So let us all roll big snowballs of positivity! Let’s all believe what we want into existence! I know with me I have a good conscience, when I do something that is not in my character or in the nature of the person I want to be, it weighs on me.. Need to stop doing that too! Life is about learning, constantly growing, changing and improving no matter what age we are and no matter what mistakes we make along the way! My goal for this year is being the positive person I am that I lost for a while. Forgiving past mistakes of mine and others. Carrying love into this new year, not hate! Seeing the beauty in all things even when times can get tough because really this world isn’t the most peaceful of places at times. Life is gonna throw hard times at you, it has to because that’s what life’s about. It’s how we react to life’s events that matter the most and produce our outcomes. No matter how hurt we are or bad the event is! So for me in 2019, I will try everyday to do better. To believe in good karma, remember what goes around comes around and to be a great human. To do onto others like I would want done onto myself. I will not torture myself with my past mistakes but do everything in my power to learn from them! The girl who loves to laugh, enjoys the little things in life, loves her family and friends. The girl who just wants to see everyone happy and never sad! Who just wants to be in love, have her own family and take road trips in her khaki green VW campervan that she one day WILL have 😉 That’s my wish for everyone this year, forgive ourselves for the times we have fallen short. Forgive others because no one is perfect! It’s hard being a human sometimes. Focus on the good even when at times it may seem like there might not be too much in this world. Remember the law of attraction and put all your wants into the universe, focus and believe in them and yourself so you can live the life you want no matter what any of the days behind us have brought!

Peace, Love & Believe xoxo