All you need is a big umbrella!

It’s raining here in Toronto which is appropriate for my next subject…. Ever notice how when it rains it pours?! Why is that? It’s like we need to be put to the extreme test in those hard moments just to see how strong we can be! No more strength tests pls!! I’m not a body builder and I would be a pathetic one at that. Although, I use to run and I started running again the last couple months. Well actually my dog has made me run when we go for walks because he gets too excited and is way too strong for me that he just drags me. So technically, I have to run but that’s besides the point. Running has definitely helped with relieving some of my anxiety. I recommend trying it for any of you fellow anxiety ridden souls but let me warn you, the first week after your first attempt will not be fun! I haven’t felt my legs so sore in a very long time and I have never felt so old trying to bend down and pick something up. Back to the rain tho, seriously can we just deal with one problem at a time. Why overload us with multiple? I get that life is all about perpetual lessons, tests and judgement calls on how we choose to be as human beings but why not scatter the tough issues as opposed to bombarding them all at once? You know, a little tough time here… then some happiness there… then a tough situation here and then more happiness there! I’m a tough cookie but definitely a BIG softy when it comes to my heart! Any life changing, scary events like picking up and moving to another country or changing careers at a whim I can handle easily without fear. But when it comes to people being unkind to me or others, letting go of a situation or person, confrontation, sadness or hurt feelings, any of that general yucky stuff I am the BIGGEST baby! It weighs on my conscience and heart. I have had some of those situations arise lately. I also got some scary news about a loved one not too long ago and coming from this self proclaimed hypochondriac I will be a nervous wreck til the results come in. That’s another thing, why do bad things happen to good people and good things happen to the bad ones? That issue bothers me immensely! I mean, I truly do believe in karma and I know eventually what goes around comes around but I’ve known some pretty questionable characters in my time and they now have the cutest little families, are so happy and are living their best life although they have done some pretty terrible things in the past. Now I don’t wish harm on anyone at all and wish everyone the best but it’s just annoying! How can you learn the lessons of how not to be a shitty person if you end up getting everything you want with no repercussion? Hopefully they have changed from the people I knew them once to be! What makes me upset about that is, on the other hand I know the sweetest of souls who have the kindest hearts, don’t do any harm but have gone through so much bullshit (excuse my french) in their lives and still are! How is that fair? If it was up to me all the bad people would have shitty lives and the good ones would have beautiful lives, which I think is fair right?! You choose to be a bad person, you get a bad life! I guess at the end of their lives is when God will make the call on what will happen to them and if I was them I would be tremendously scared. I just think that sometimes enough is enough and of course there are truly many beautiful moments in life but can we just get rid of all the dark moments and always be happy?! No?! Can’t happen eh! Well, a girl can dream! Philosophers say that we wouldn’t appreciate the good if we never experienced any bad and basically how would we know to appreciate the good without the bad? I guess it’s like the Ying and Yang, there would be no light without the dark. If you’re anything like me, I could definitely live without the dark! I’m good with not learning the lessons or having any heart break. Unfortunately that’s not life I suppose. I guess we need to remember that when the dark times come, there’s some light that will eventually shine through even if we can’t see it just yet. In any circumstance! If you lose a job you love, don’t know if and when you will find a new one. Stay strong, you’ve had to find a job before and you will again!
If someone hurts you, doesn’t care about you, doesn’t value you, does horrible things to you without any glimpse of a conscience that’s on them in the end. What people do to you or say about you is just reflection of their own character. If you or your loved one has a health scare, the best thing to do is stay as positive as possible in the scariest of times. I actually have a friend who’s mother was diagnosed with cancer years ago, she sadly passed away but when she found out about the cancer she was only supposed to have months to live. When I say this woman was one of the strongest women I know, that is truly an understatement!! She was so positive!! Never a negative thought, never a “woe is me” attitude, it was amazing to see and because of her beautiful attitude she lived for four years after her diagnosis! I use to always say I wish I had her attitude and strength for every situation. That’s all we have to do tho right, try! Try to be positive even if at the moment it’s hard to. Try to be strong even if it feels like it’s down pouring on you! Remember there is always something in life to be grateful for, even in the dark!

“The cure for pain, is in the pain”- Rumi

Peace, love & never give up xo